Porcelain Pieces

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I carry you around in a dream

My world in a pile of porcelain pieces

Jingle-jangling

At the bottom of my heart

You might feel it

The stammer, the tremble in my voice

You think it’s kind of sweet

But don’t mistake it for weakness

Cause I can feel it tingling

It’s locked up inside, ready to burst

You’ll never know the way I loved you

It’s something I can’t understand

Took more than I could imagine, even now

All the time it felt so wrong

But now I can’t function

Awake or asleep

You don’t seem to feel it though

Meaningless words slip away

Life was sweet when you sparkled

Your smile, a unique candle glow

And you fell from heaven to me

Life fizzing through the air

E xx

The Fall

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Today

Just another first day

Summer is winter here

September silence

Save for the storm

Across the pond

Likey, likey on the airwaves

These little things that we do

Cold

Contagious

Lonely in this bed

Green to red to

Grey to black

Gravity owns all my tears

Slowly move on

Torn and twisted heart

Made me broken

No shame

After all

It’s just the fall

Stolen Kiss

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6:30 winter morn
Snow keeps falling, silence
She dreams of worlds far away
Sweet little worlds made for silence
Not talk, not heartache
Young heart for love

Every thawing heart plays a theme
Into eyes while they’re still blind
She took a step
Outside an innocent heart
Deep in a dream
For true loves first kiss

“Teach me passion
Show me love
Kiss while your lips are still red
So much more I wanted I’m sorry
No more to shame, nor me, nor you
And you…
I wish I didn’t feel for you anymore…”

Cherish the moment
Don’t let the dream fade to grey
The night hurts like never before
No last words to say
Only memories remain
Fare thee well, little broken heart

Whatever walks in her heart, will walk alone

E xx

Lainey’s Corner

 

In a suburban house at the start of a weekend…

Another Friday night, they come around so fast
The train late as usual
Running down the avenue, heels – colour black
In through the front door, into the hall
Stripping as I go
I’m now naked, pile of clothes abandoned
Into the parlour, your parlour
Standing by the fireplace
You’re waiting for me
Waiting for me to take my place
The far corner, the only spare corner
Well it was spare until last month
Now it’s my corner
Where I go on Friday night
For a while anyway
Your eyes penetrate, deep inside
‘Til you’ve feasted upon my nakedness
My naked round bottom, striped still
The wait is intense
As I luxuriate in the glow
My warm cheeks (both sets)
Nose always touching
The yellow coloured wall
That is Lainey’s corner

E xx

Thank You

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My car crash of a life; literally.
It’s pitch black inside.
I see nothing inside,
And I am jelly inside.

Take what is left of my world,
Faith has left me blind,
Another fading dream light,
Anything but this darkness.

Where there is light, there is hope.
The light in my head shines bright,
Well today there is,
And the light is a refraction.

I did it; no sticks,
With a run and a jump,
In a corridor without shadows.
I kissed a girl and I liked it.

Not sure where to start,
Wanna let you in,
These walls of desolation,
But I know it’s a sin.

You,
And you smile with those eyes,
And you curse me with those eyes,
And you kiss me with ruby red lips.

So this me; smile ear to ear.
Ruby red lipstick on my cheek,
Hand in hand,
Beneath the silk and the lace.

Lost and it’s you I’m needing.
I left you all the clues,
No words nearly enough,
Yet fallen on deaf ears.

I hope that you smile,
With this poem of my life.
Wanted just to say sorry,
And thank you for being you.

E xx